One of the Biggest Ways I've Ever Seen God Show up
Last January, I got super sick. I have dealt with daily headaches since September 2016 but in January it took a turn for the worse. I was down for three weeks in bed and had no energy or strength to do anything. In an attempt to get me feeling better again, my neurologist scheduled a series of infusions with different medications to see if something could break the headache cycle.
If you know me, you know that I have always been terrified of needles. I hate getting shots, IV's, and my blood drawn. I typically get super worked up to the point of a panic attack, cry, and in the past have had to take medicine just in order to get into the doctor's office. It's no surprise that when I found out I was going to have to get these infusions, I was less than thrilled. The idea of an IV being stuck in me every day for a couple weeks terrified me.
That first day, my mom and I headed to the hospital and I uneasily checked in. The nurses were all so sweet and immediately made me feel as comfortable as possible. About five minutes before the nurse started my first IV I saw my mom get the biggest smile on her face as she told me to turn around. I peaked around the chair I was sitting in to see the cutest black golden doodle standing towards the back of the infusion center. My mom asked the nurse about the dog, and she explained that her name is Bailey, and she is a therapy dog who is at the hospital most days providing support for patients that might need her.
In addition to my fear of needles, I love dogs maybe more than anything. The sweet golden doodle wandered over to me, and came to sit right by me while the nurse put my IV in. There is something so calming and peaceful about dogs, and sweet Bailey knew exactly how to act to calm my nerves. We got to know her owner Laura and in the continuing days of my infusions, Laura and Bailey were always there.
Bailey became what I would look most forward to even in the midst of doing something I really did not enjoy. Her calming presence got me to the point where I wouldn't cry or freak out, but that simply by petting her I felt so much better about the entire situation. She would sit with me throughout the whole 15-20 minutes of the infusion, and I loved every second of being with her.
Looking back on this experience, I know that by Bailey being there in a time I was so stressed and nervous, it was like God stepping in and telling me, "You can do this. You're going to be okay. I am right here". He never leaves us when we need Him, and He knew exactly what I needed in this situation. It makes me think of the verse Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." I have always struggled with trying to hear His voice in my day to day life, or trying to focus on examples of when I could legitimately feel God with me, but this time it could not have been more clear. He brought Bailey to me in a time when I needed her more than ever, and I felt His love and presence so strongly.
Not only did I see God show up big time in this situation, but it's even more of a testimony to how He never wastes a hurt. As hard as this entire infusion experience was, in addition to all of the other needles I've encountered, God can always bring purpose out of the pain we are going through. My experience with Bailey and how much she helped me through that tough time inspired me to want to have a therapy dog one day, and to be able to do for others what Bailey and Laura did for me. All of the needles I've experienced have prepared me for a career in nursing, to be able to be compassionate and relate to my patients when they are scared and hurting. Even though it hasn't always been easy, I am confident that God's plan is always greater than mine and that no matter what comes my way, He can turn it into something beautiful.